Reflections: it was wild, thanks


The time is out of joint.

The end of the semester nears, and I feel like I'm pumping the pedals of a bike whose wheels are all out of shape across the finish line. I've got to be out of the house by 6 a.m. to get into the newsroom on time for the final tomorrow at 8 (not 7:30, thank goodness). It's just after midnight and I still need to eat dinner.

I've done a terrible job documenting what it is that stopped me from updating this blog regularly, but I think I like it that way for now. I want to turn this experience into something overwhelmingly positive; I will use this as a platform for expressing a shift in perspective for me.

I clawed my way back up to (what I hope will be) an A-average in three of my classes, but Journalism, a field in which your ability to meet a deadline is tantamount, is far less forgiving to my GPA, and rightly so. I only hope that I can make it up to the awesome program this Fall.

I've learned a lot about what I can and cannot handle this semester. I've developed a lot of ideas about where I want to go and the world I live in. I worked part-of-a-part-time, I joined a club, and I had a few things published despite my failings and flailngs. It wasn't a stellar semester, but it was a good one.

No summer school this semester. I have a lot of "projects" in mind, and this blog is one of them. (Hint: the rest have to do with reading, catching up on all my DVD-watching; basically, this summer I will be simplifying, building, learning, and exploring at my own pace.)

I'm looking forward to it. Now, to get that dinner going.

Still not dead; have some of my recap with the MTV president

Hello there! I am still not dead. I have just had my entire life derailed by a couple of weeks with the combined efforts of a chest cold/sinus infection/minor flu, a bunch of missed days of class, and the endless fury of the gods in punishment for my many shortcomings.

On April 21, Brian Graden gave a presentation at Mt. SAC. I wrote an article for class that didn't make it into the print edition on account of missed deadlines (see repulsive paragraph of self-pity above), so here it is. More to come.
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“Contrary to some authority figures, I actually think you can learn everything you need to know about life from watching television,” joked the man who currently heads the empire that is MTV, VH1 and Logo networks April 21 at Mt. SAC’s music recital hall.

The crowd, consisting of those young adults mostly within the MTV target demographic, heard Brian Graden, the networks’ president, as he spoke about his journey of self-discovery and his rise to the helm of popular culture within the context of the lessons he learned on the way.

Fresh from judging at the Miss USA competition the previous night, Graden interspersed his speech with video clips that made the audience alternately laugh out loud and become soberingly silent.

Graden was tongue-in-cheek about his networks’ role in pop culture, showing among clips from past, current and upcoming shows with a parody clip from YouTube that mocked the pregnant music-filled pauses and drama in “The Hills” as an example of the consequences of his position. Another clip, from “College Library,” depicted a challenge in which a machine slapped a red-faced man repeatedly while a group restrained and shushed him.

“That goes on for half an hour,” Graden said drily.

But the quips were really about Graden’s story of success, which hinged, he said, on finding happiness and remaining true to himself.

Graden described his early life as one of conformity. He attended Harvard University as a youth, was engaged to a woman at a young age and had a career lined up in accounting. But, biologically gay and hating his field of study, he was miserable.

“I was hiding myself from myself,” Graden said.

Eventually Graden followed his happiness and broke into the world of television, convincing people to sign releases on the then-brand-new show, “COPS.”

“It didn’t matter that I was making $200 dollars a week and working 100-hour weeks and getting shot at,” Graden said. “For the first time ever, I was really, truly happy.”

Contrary to popular belief, Graden said, success does not lead to happiness. Rather, the opposite is true.

Part of that process included championing the cause of the animation, which depicted a Santa Claus-Jesus Christ showdown and foul-mouthed children, that later became “South Park,” which, Graden said, lost him a position as a FOX executive when his video Christmas card for personal friends spread beyond control. He stayed with the creators of “South Park” and, after many rejections and a financial and psychological struggle, finally achieved a single pilot at a small network. That network was Comedy Central.

“Do what you love,” Graden continued. “If you are happy, and you make yourself truly happy in this moment, then you’ll end up becoming successful beyond your wildest dreams.”

Graden encouraged the audience not second-guess themselves because of others with a clip from “College Life,” in which a University of Wisconsin in Madison student who was failing math because he partied too much. In reality, Graden said, the student harbored an idea from others that he did not deserve to succeed, even though he was smart enough to pass all his classes.

“If there’s any negative belief that you have about yourself that’s holding you back in any way, let it go,” Graden said. “It’s untrue, and the truth is that everybody in this room deserves all success and all the happiness in this life. It really doesn’t matter where you are at this very moment. It doesn’t matter where you come from, I am certain that it isn’t that. You can transform your life always.”

To illustrate, he showed a clip of Britney Spears stumbling at performance at the Video Music Awards from two years ago, followed by an image of Spears with an armful of VMA trophies.

“I think there’s an illusion out there, thanks to reality TV shows, that inside of 12 weeks you can become a top chef, a famous singer or a survivor just by backstabbing others and not getting eliminated,” Graden said. “The truth is, you’re going to have to work your ass off. But the difference is if you’re doing what you love, it’s really, really fun to do the work.”

After the speech, Graden fielded questions from a smaller group of students and presented, alongside Leisel Reinhart, two scholarships to Mt. SAC students W. Derod Taylor and Heather Rains. The scholarships were funded in lieu of Graden’s speaker fee.

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Actually I like that I can post it here with a couple contextual links. I was one of the few students at the question fielding, and will try and get a transcript of the Q-and-A up tomorrow. I was pretty excited to have a chance to ask smart questions about things about pop culture I had seen from Merchants of Cool years ago in combination with what I have seen in the media. Instead, I kind of sat there like the useless INTP I am and squeaked out something about education, which was answered pretty admirably. Siiiiigh.

Violet




Today my little blue bird died.

We adopted her in 2005. She was a baby and her beak was still black.

She loved a little hot dog plushie (which was stolen in 2007 by a bratty cat)and would preen his hair.

My dad loved her more than anybody.

She was doted on constantly by that little yellow-green guy on the left since they were both babies:



I miss her.

I'm not dead

Just behind on posts.
Things this week:
  • Midterms
  • Articles/interviews
  • Catching up on studying/homework
  • Work (I grade papers! Oh man do I have stories about being a T.A. in high school. I am an awful employee. Was, I mean. In high school. NOT NOW. Google, shut up about me!)
  • Catching up on/re-doing sleep cycle
  • Making the trek to the DMV for my written exam
  • Rethinking the course of my life
Updates I should make:
  • The Malibu runs like a wagon, does this bizarre pulsating revving noise while idle, and is covered in dings and nail polish in improbable places. It will be fixed up and sold to someone who is not me.
  • I am really uncomfortable putting too much online right now. This is all too googleable and I hate doing this shovelware blogging but there ain't much I can say without offering a caveat or ten: what I have to say isn't all that interesting or non-libelous. I have really high standards of what I let the world read from me and it isn't this.
  • Stuff in the works: the Renaissance Pleasure Faire (awesome nerdy bawdy Sunday), movies I've seen recently on DVD (and my soon-to-be Netflix experience!), stuff I'm doing with my awful draft I completed for 2008's NaNoWriMo (namely, quantifying it in order to separate myself enough to deal with it without having to actually read it), another Series of Transportive Events post, the arrival of my Coraline Nike Dunks in the mail earlier this week (photos to come!! I just need my camera) and several other things I want to roll in (retroactive posts are icky, but I may do them for the sake of organization. Besides, it would be on the timeline -- I went to the Ren Faire on Sunday, for instance, and the Dunks came in Tuesday.)
Keep an eye out for more from the hypnic jerk.
That is all.

Happy nerd driving maybe

Waylon Smithers w/ Malibu Stacy by Eay on Flickr via Creative Commons

I am doubly surprised at my fortune today. First, and to my utter nerdly delight, I found Serenity on DVD for $10! And I discovered that my dad went behind my back and purchased a 1997 Chevy Malibu for my use!

I don't know how to feel! I really don't. Should I be terrified? Happy? Guilty?

Just today I was telling Magali that my parents would never buy me a car in a million years, and here we are.

I think I will meet said Malibu this weekend. When I think of Malibu I think "Malibu Stacy" from the Simpsons. I think Stacy would be a great car name, especially if I consider the car a male. The car I'm learning on, a white 1986 Pontiac 6000, is called Mr. Wiggles on account of his former tendency to veer violently to the left.

I think I will read my handbook and get ready for my permit test tomorrow (the one I had expired last week). Then we'll see how these things reconcile themselves.

Mountiewire.com is live!

Print issue 2 of the Mountaineer is out, and mountiewire.com is printed right below the masthead, so I assume it's safe to link.



The site is a little buggy right now, but there's already a ton of stuff to look through on the multimedia front. This gets me giddy. Go go go!
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